homestudy revision

We had a little glitch in our paperwork, the Ministry requested that our homestudy be revised to add in a few extra details that wouldn't normally be requested.

So it's been revised, we've signed it again and it's on it's way back to the Ontario Ministry today.

I feel so at peace with this adoption. Sure, like any mother, I want my new little one home as soon as possible. But with this adoption I feel an inner peace that I never really felt last time. Maybe it's because it's our second time and I feel more sure of the process or maybe it's because I have witnessed the eventual outcome of all this waiting and paperwork, a special child that was picked especially for us and our family. I know my Heavenly Father has already chosen a child for our family, and I know every glitch and every extra minute we wait is all in His perfect timing, to lead us to that child. How incredible.

I happened to read Psalm 43 last week, the day after I found out that the Ministry was requesting more information, and I knew the Lord was reminding me to hope in Him, because He is very much in control.

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Psalm 43

1 Judge me, O God, and plead my cause against an ungodly nation:
O deliver me from the deceitful and unjust man.

2 For thou art the God of my strength: why dost thou cast me off?
Why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?

3 O send out thy light and thy truth: let them lead me;
let them bring me unto thy holy hill, and to thy tabernacles.

4 Then will I go unto the altar of God, unto God my exceeding joy:
yea, upon the harp will I praise thee, O God my God.

5 Why art thou cast down, O my soul? And why art thou disquieted within me?
Hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.

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The psalmist says to those “cast down” and “disquieted” feelings, “Hope in God. He will come through again, as He has before.”

We see that at the end of the psalm none of the circumstances of the psalmist have changed - only his attitude, and what a difference that makes! “Not yet has the answer come. The darkness and the mystery are still there, but the shining way is seen; and again the soul is forbidden to despair and hope is encouraged in God.”